Curious Idiot

I was not exposed to any great books till I was in school. That probably was because none of my school friends or relatives or neighbours talked about reading any books. Not even novels. Apart from school books I just read Tamil(My mother tongue) novels. When I entered college, I found most of my colleagues reading books. Mostly novels. All kind of novels. I also read some novels. But I could not spend much time for the first 3 years, as I wanted to get a good job. The next day after getting my job, my book reading spree started. I literally got addicted to reading books. The first book I read was "I'm OK You're OK". This book was really good. It helped me understand that brain is not a single undivisible entity. "Thinking part of brain" is different and "feelings part of brain" is different. I was able to see this easily in me and in others. I was able to apply this easily. Then "Dancing Wu Li Masters". This was also good. I learnt that

We can't prove that God is not there. But then we can also not prove the presence of the God. I dont want to wait for either of these to be proved. But there is one logic which helped me in deciding that "God is not there". If the so called Omnipotent God is there with all possible powers in the universe, then atleast some responsibilities can be delegated to God. But if he is not there, we should be responsible for everything. Even if God is there, he is not going to kill us for assuming more responsibilities. Now that God is not there, where did this universe(/multiverse) come from? Who are we? Where did we all originate from? ? What are we doing here? Where are we headed towards? Why did this universe get created? Why did we get created? I could not spend my time in searching for the answers for any of these questions for the next four years. I spent 1998 for standard 12. Then got into a , pretty much good, engineering college called NIT Trichy, Indi

Until March 1st 1997, when I was just 16 years old, I was a normal kid going to school and doing what would please my parents and others. I had all the normal beliefs about life and earth and universe or atleast that is what I was thinking. That is when my biology master told me the truth. Within a few moments it struck me that, YES GOD IS NOT THERE!!! Anywhere in this universe there is no such thing called GOD. Everything fell into place automatically. All propositions supporting this fact started to fall in place in my brain. That was the first turning point in my life. I started to diverge from the normal life which I might have led if I had not come to know about the fact that "THE SO CALLED OMNIPOTENT GOD IS NOT THERE AT ALL IN THIS UNIVERSE (OR MULTIVERSE IF THERE IS ONE)."